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So many thoughts about Paris and the other awful things happening in the world. I’ve had so many conversations this weekend with friends and other survivors from Boston. Of course this hits close to home. Of course it brings back memories, thoughts, fear.

In a small way I KNOW what the people in Paris are feeling. And although it is so far away, these scary terrorist attacks halfway around the world rock our Boston survivor world here in America. Nicole said “I will forever be heartbroken every time I hear about someone else going through such an awful time. And I will think about all of those hurt this week, all of those who lost those they love, and all of those who will have to deal with that mental/emotional struggle. I hope they find peace over time.” And that is how we feel. We are heartbroken, disturbed, scared, emotional.

This is a bit of a blog I wrote right after the bombing and hopefully it can bring some encouragement to people today. The world is in chaos. Terrible things happen every day, everywhere. But, God is STILL in control. He ALWAYS will be, and for those of us who trust in Him, he will always be on our side!

From 4/29/13 (14 days after the bombing)

The angel of the Lord encamps around those who fear him, and he delivers them.
Psalm 34:7

I haven’t really looked at any of the pictures. I haven’t watched any of the news. I lived it, I don’t want to see it over and over. For me that works, for others, they want to explore every photograph and put the pieces together.

Anyway, there have been several comments that whenever we show up in a picture, there is utter chaos surrounding us, but we all look so peaceful. We are either laying patiently on the ground, or sitting calmly. In the midst of chaos, peace. And I never would have had a second thought about it, but several people have brought it up today. And I’m not ready to write about all that happened in those moments. The explosion etc, but I would like to address this one subject.

First of all, there must have been hundreds of angels all around us. The new Chris Tomlin song Whom Shall I Fear kept running through my head. “The God of Angel armies is always by my side”. So yes, I believe there were angels all around us. We were so close to the bomb, we should be hurt much worse, or even dead. Although our injuries are extensive, they should have been much worse.

Second, Colton brought this up to me today. People keep asking “where was God in all of this?” Just look at the pictures. Look at the chaos and then look at me or Rebekah, or Peter or Kim or Colton. That’s where God was. We are His children, filled with His Spirit. In the midst of chaos, He WAS there.

Third, I believe that God gave us so so much grace. Grace to think clearly. To know how to respond in trauma. To know to tie tourniquets. Or to coach people to breathe. Or to know how to communicate with the first responders. Not one of us lost control or freaked out.

Someday I’m sure I will look at the pictures. But I just want you to know today, that God was there. He was with us. We would not be where we are today if it weren’t for Him.

And as we are experiencing more and more of His grace everyday, we are amazed and speechless and we just keep clinging to Him.

I know who goes before me
I know who stands behind
The God of angel armies is always by my side
The One who reigns forever
He is a friend of mine
The God of angel armies is always by my side