I feel like there’s something out there this week that I am supposed to learn, but I haven’t figured it out yet. Things about selfishness for sure. And things about not being bossy. Or not being over-opinionated. Or being ok with not being in charge. Or things about being ok when people won’t listen to my ideas even if I think my idea is the only right way to do something. Planning weddings is hard. And trying to keep your sister happy and never frustrated is even harder! I love my sister. She is wonderful and she is not hard to please. I just think that four of us here trying to get things done with VERY differing opinions is HARD.

I’m going to elope.
Sorry everyone.

So I have been frustrated and just keep thinking there is something I am supposed to learn from this “vacation”. And I’d like to learn it. I’d like to put it all into one word. Maybe humility. Submission. Quietness. Servant. Selflessness.

Proverbs 11:25 The generous will prosper; those who refresh others will themselves be refreshed.

I think servant is the right word. No, selflessness.

Selfless: having, exhibiting, or motivated by no concern for oneself; unselfish.

Well they are all the right word. But I think I am realizing that I LOVE to serve people. On my terms. My way. And that’s not really being a servant is it? Do I only serve when I feel like it or when I actually like what it is I will be doing? And I think to some extent when serving and using your gifts you will find enjoyment while doing it. I just think that sometimes I am not as selfless as I should be. I need to learn to more often take a step back, and refresh others, be motivated by my concern for others, be a servant.  Maybe this is my lesson for the week.

Matthew 20:26&27 Whoever wants to be a leader among you must be your servant and whoever wants to be first among you must become your slave. For even the Son of Man came not to be served but to serve others and to give his life as a reason for many.